I don’t even remember when or why people started selecting words for the New Year, but for some reason it resonates with me.
Here is the recap of my past selections
- Squirrel for 2014
- Stones for 2015
- Clean slate for 2016
- Thank you for 2017
- Laughter for 2018.
So my journey over the past 5 years reflects the need to stop chasing every shiny thing, to make sure my priorities were in order, then to stop having guilt over what I could not complete, followed by being thankful for the hard and then finding my reason to keep laughing. All of these combined have brought me to my word for 2019.
My word for 2019 is healing.
For the past 5 years I have gotten to the end of the year and reflected back. Each reflection has been the same, this year brought some horrible pain and yet I have fought to keep chasing joy. But all that fighting while good for the moment does deeply take a toll on your mental health. Especially year after year of battling.
For the sake of survival I pushed through the hard and the grief. For the sake of my sanity I allowed time to ignore my hurts. For a few moments I might have just laughed instead of allowing space for the hard feelings to actually heal.
So here I am looking back and looking forward and have come to the understanding that my soul needs to take time to heal. Honestly I don’t even know how that will look, but I am going to give time and space this year for it to happen.
Sadly I know looking forward 2019 holds more pain with a few situations I know will to come to pass. So instead of piling more hurt upon hurt I want to be intentional about focusing on healing.
Here’s to healing in the New Year!